They've experienced a violation from a close relationship, a trusted friend, the kind that shakes your faith in any humanity, & causes you to look at every area of life, every other relationship more closely... to subject others to examinations & questionings that seem so inappropriate, so untrusting to even think of friends this way... except for the fact that the violation happened. From a close friend, a trusted associate. One with whom sweet fellowship has been shared... They keep waiting to hit bottom, to finally come to the end of the Painful Revelations, where the depth & breadth & scope of the violations could finally be processed or at least assessed, instead of tensing up the gut, waiting for the next punch of disappointment to hit.
(BTW: please, please don't get lost in the sweet fellowship comment. Think of it in the very best way you can, w/o the cynicism & jaded-ness. Thanks for that.)
Though I'm at a distance, their pain is mine as well. I'm trying to walk through this & to help them too. To point them to One that doesn't disappoint. To remind ourselves of Easter & the ramifications of it. To look inward & ask the Spirit of God to explore the depths of my soul, every nook & cranny, exposing the things that lie in wait to wreak havoc. My prayer is:
Search me Father - know my heart. Try me, know my mind. If there be any wicked way in me, pull me to the Rock everlasting.