Showing posts with label pontifications. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pontifications. Show all posts

The development of a philosophy of missions #1, Or Becoming Missional...

It's a long title, I know... This post, & the next few are a part of a project I'm working on to help answer "Why are you always going to Germany?" & "How come Hillside has a 'sister church' in Frankfurt?" It will chronicle the thought processes behind my own development & understanding of what missions is, as well as the situations, people, & happenings that have most shaped me & my outlook on missions, & what it means to me to live out faith, missionally.
At the end of my Jr. Year, in the summer before my Senior year, the youth group I was a part of was participating in a "mission team" to Mexico City... the city that was hosting the World Cup, a place that the whole world would be descending upon for a short time with the focus being on who had the best soccer team in the world. The purpose of the trip was to 'evangelize/share the gospel message with the people coming to Mexico City.' Our youth group was partnering with 2 or 3 other groups from different parts of California, most notably San Mateo, to put together 'outreach teams'. My youth pastor asked me to consider going - I spoke broken Spanish, don't you know? - & helped me raise the money to go. I was working a job in landscaping & through that & a couple of well-meaning donors, I was able to raise the $700 necessary for the airfare & all of our 'in-country' supplies.

I'd never been on a mission trip before, & didn't know what to expect. We met as the Reno group a couple of times in advance of our trip to talk about what we'd be doing (though I don't remember what we talked about,) & 1x with all the other youth groups that would be going too - to familiarize ourselves with them; to work out an organizational plan so that no one would get lost in the biggest city in the whole world at a time where more people were descending on the aforementioned biggest city than could be imagined... My group (which existed for the purposes of travel) had 5 people in it, & we named the group the "Jackson 5" - (back in the day when they were Oh So Cool, & before Michael became... Michael.) The idea of a large group travelling in a bunch of smaller groups to avoid confusion in airports, subways, train stations & buses is something that I carry with me to this day...
It seemed like such a good idea at the time. We were going to go to Mexico City, which I imagined as very impoverished & needy of the gospel of Jesus, to present the gospel through some amateur plays, songs in Spanish (that we'd just learned,) & by handing out gospel tracts in front of the main stadium where the semi-finals & finals of the Copa Mundial were to be played.

As we arrived by plane in the city, it became very clear to me that every thought of what I had imagined would be happening on this mission trip went out the window - looking as far to the left & right that I could, seeing only the vast expanse of big city, La Ciudad, Mexico City.

to be continued...

packing

This afternoon offers the opportunity of doing laundry in preparation for "the packing" in preparation for my upcoming trip to Deutschland on Tuesday.

As usual, I'm conflicted - don't want to take the big suitcase, & also don't want to end up wishing that I'd brought more stuff with me. But, I usually end up taking about 2-3x as many shirts, pants, & warm stuff than I need. And every time I get back, I promise myself that I won't make the same mistake again. Which, of course, I inevitably do.

But this time will be different. Really. It could happen.


The 1st 4 days of my trip I will be in a place called "Gau Algesheim" - about a 2 hour train trip from Frankfurt. I'm headed there right after my arrival (early Wednesday a.m.) to spend some time with my friends Alex & Linda - something that I'm greatly looking forward to, as they are always 'highlights' for me to spend time with - for their wonderful personalities, great senses of humor, & determination to follow Christ, all of which are an inspiration to me.

After that, I'm off to Oberwesel - don't know anything about that, other than its by the Rhein River, which makes theBean more than a little jealous, as seeing lights on water, at night, is her favorite thing. I'll be there through the following Wednesday, 12 November, at which time its back to Frankfurt for meetings with friends at TPLF. Our sister church has a new pastor, Eddy Dueck, & I'll hopefully be able to spend some time with him during the last days.

I don't QUITE have my accommodations when I'm back in Frankfurt arranged. Which means that after 12 November, I don't know where I'll be staying, or with whom. And its not that I'm worried about not knowing, but I think I'd probably sleep better tonight, where I'll be sleeping then.

Ok. Time to load the washer.

Friends #6 - Or more off-the-top-of-my-head thoughts

About 3 years ago, I read one of the most influential books I've ever come across - called, Love Is A Choice. It made an impact because it brought to light & illustrated the human condition & how/why we connect with others... esp. in unhealthy, selfish, &/or destructive ways.

One of the things that stood out to me, (at least from the thoughts that ended up being provoked OUT of having read it,) was that in order for a friendship to be healthy & life-giving, both parties had to be 'givers' (my word;) nurturing, feeding, building up the relationship & the other person - a relationship where 1/both are 'takers' (again, my word) ends up with 1/both being taken advantage of, used & abused, all in the name of friendship.


It made me think about what I've tolerated (& also watched others tolerate) in the name of "keeping a friendship." Things like:

  • 1 persons constant tardiness or not showing up at all, & when they're questioned, saying, "Oh, I was busy," or offering up some other excuse. Always.

  • The blowing up in rage, pouting in petulance, avoiding in silent treatment upon saying "No" to a request (demand?), & seeing the behaviors (& acceptance) change only upon giving the "right" answer, "YES!" - do what I want.

  • 1 person being the one that kept communication going - in emails, letters, phone calls, with the other always being 'too busy' or 'not good at" initiating contact.

  • Having been asked, "if you see something in what I'm doing, who I'm seeing, places I'm going that seem destructive, would you please tell me?" & actually believing it & doing it, to find that what you end up with is a person that 'dumps' you from the friendship because of what you've said, finding out too late that the fine sounding words spoken in a point of seeming relational intimacy were not quite what was meant.

  • hearing from someone just when they need something, & going weeks, months, & even years when they don't.

  • Not being able to talk about anything significant or important to being really real friends, because it just might upset the other person - meaning we wouldn't be able to maintain the minimal & surface-ey contact we have.



    Maybe it's just that I have a different set of definitions when it comes to what a friend is & what a friend does & doesn't do. Maybe it's not being willing any longer to live with the sham of "as long as you're feeling ok & not offended today," relationships. Maybe it's being tired of carrying both sides of the relationship. Maybe it's the realization that there are many, many great people that hold a high value on true friendship that makes fakin' the funk not worth it, no matter how long standing the contact or how much water has gone under the bridge...

    Hmmm.
  • fall...

    The crispness in the air is refreshing... makes me glad to live in Reno/Sparks, where we get to have all 4 seasons... The more I travel, the more I'm thankful for the change in temperature, the occasional frosty dew on the grass, & even the need to bundle up before going out. Even the brown that is the normal Nevada landscape is something I appreciate.

    Life is short, & time goes by so quickly, hidden in the change of seasons, the rhythm of the familiar, which seemed to take forever when I was but a wee bairn, & now seems to roll as quickly as a slideshow on my IPhoto...

    The last 3 months have been a time of reconnections - I've gotten more contacts from people from my past through Facebook in that time period that I had heard from in the previous 20 years. Very interesting to be able to hear from people who have been significant in my life at some point, & now to hear/see what is happening in whatever phase of life that they're in. And seeing the fruit of the choices that have been made too. Cool beans.

    It seems that the "falling back" part of Daylight Savings Time should be happening sooner than November. What the heck? We go through ALL of October with no recompense for the travesty of the Spring Forward? I'm a standard time guy. Forget Ben Franklin, forget the 'practicality' of the sin of packing more into the day than can fit in the 23 hours 56 minutes we're allotted by the Most High...

    Diet Sierra Mist rocks the world. The DSM with Cranberry is on another level as well. Absolutely incredible. I shall pour me another.

    A wise man once told me...

    ...nobody owes me anything.

    The cause of a lot of offense, frustration, disappointment, & unmet expectations is an underlying belief that I might not have even identified, let alone articulated... someone owes me an explanation. Some thoughtfulness. Time. Respect.

    Nobody owes me anything.

    It's easier to say, "I don't owe anyone anything," but I believe that might have to do with the selfishness of the statement, which speaks to the ability to live life with a reckless abandon in regards towards the feelings & perceptions of others.

    Nobody owes me anything.

    I don't have a claim on being treated appropriately by anyone else - & clinging to my claim, however well founded in my own mind, (& in public opinion) doesn't change that fact. The more I cling to my 'rights' the more I am hamstrung by my own woundedness, & I limit where God can work in & through me...

    Nobody owes me anything.


    Philippians 2:3-11
    3 Don’t be selfish; don’t try to impress others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves.

    4 Don’t look out only for your own interests, but take an interest in others, too.

    5 You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had.

    6 Though he was God,
    he did not think of equality with God
    as something to cling to.

    7 Instead, he gave up his divine privileges[b];
    he took the humble position of a slave[c]
    and was born as a human being.
    When he appeared in human form,[d]

    8 he humbled himself in obedience to God
    and died a criminal’s death on a cross.

    9 Therefore, God elevated him to the place of highest honor
    and gave him the name above all other names,

    10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
    in heaven and on earth and under the earth,

    11 and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
    to the glory of God the Father.

    Thanks...


    ...to CS Lewis, the guy in the picture, smoking his pipe. I love the way he communicates in his writings, without hesitating to move into the difficult areas of life. Pain. Failure. Temptation. Struggle. Hope. Joy.

    He has been an inspiration to me ... And every journey through Narnia. The Sci-Fi Trilogy. Mere Christianity. The Problem of Pain. Surprised by Joy... Brings a bit of joy to me.

    some days...

    Seems like there is a conspiracy of some sort... a conspiracy to antagonize me until I finally snap, & really lose it. Get angry. Throw stuff. Yell. Have a fit. This isn't a new thing. It happens all the time. A little something something pulls at me, twists me to give in to the rage, to "vent." To allow myself the indulgence of a rant.

    Yet there's the whisper that says no. Don't. I don't need to. It won't bring the relief that it promises. The resulting frustrations & regrets far outweigh the false luxury of temporary giving away of control.

    It doesn't really matter if it's been "dumb people," as I know that I am someone's dumb person. (BTW: please don't write me to confirm. I really, really would encourage you to KITY, which is my own acronym, just created for Keep it to Yourself...) Life is full of frustrations. Long lines. Computer updates that create snafus with the other programs on the computer. People that one has to interact with in order to transact business, eat a meal, fill a prescription, find necessary information... if I were to lose it every time I was justified in "losing it," I think that I'd be going off pretty much all the time. And the issue would be selfishness. Self-focus. Pride. Me issues.

    And the indulgence of flesh gives place to the dark-side... provides a pivot point, a manipulation station the enemy can work from, in complete anonymity, hiding behind my well-developed sense of offense, wronged-ness, & me-ness.

    Note: please go easy on the scoey-isms that have entered the blog. If you're reading, it's late. I'm tired. Frustrated. Bothered at several wasted hours. At dust & dirt. Silly dogs. Eyes that itch & burn & are really red, that EVERYONE is finding it necessary to point out to me.

    what is the measure of your success? and other questions to ponder...


    Feeling a bit pensive today- & wanted to share the love.

    How does one know if what they're doing is a success or a failure?
    What constitutes a successful life?
    Is it silly to think in terms of success & failure when it comes to evaluating a life/life decisions?
    Is it accumulation of stuff? Wealth? Friendships? Philanthropy/benevolence/humanitarianism? Education? Accomplishments?

    What standard will I be measured with? Against?


    WHAT IS THE MEASURE OF YOUR SUCCESS?


    © Roland Steven Taylor, from the Album "I Predict 1990"

    In this city I confess
    I am driven to possess
    answer no one, let them guess
    are you someone I impress?

    I am a big boss
    with a short fuse
    I have a nylon carpet and rubber shoes
    and when I shake hands
    you'll get a big shock
    you'll be begging for mercy when the champ is through
    you'd better believe I'll put the clamps on you

    In this city, be assured
    some will rise above the herd
    feed the fatted, leave the rest
    this is how we won the West

    I am a safebox
    I am the inner sanctum when the door locks
    I own the passkey
    you say you can't take it with you?
    we'll see about that, won't we?

    push...push...push...

    In this city I confess
    god is mammon, more is less
    off like lemmings at the gun
    I know better, still I run

    I am an old man
    and the word came
    but you can't buy time on a good name
    now when the heirs come around like buzzards on a kill
    I see my reflection in their envious eyes
    I'd watch it all burn
    to buy another sunrise

    Some men find the fire escape
    old men learn it all too late
    push...push...push the alarm
    old MacDonald's bought the farm

    Hmmm...



    Jesus is with you...

    Friday fodder (on the other side of moving...)

    I'm waiting for the DirecTV guy... impatiently...

  • What is it that makes a person hold onto their 'stuff' when its obvious that they're never going to even take the stuff out of the box its in, let alone use it? I have boxes in the garage that have been in every garage I've had since I got married. If they're not empty by November 30, they will be thrown away, no questions asked, no looking inside. Write it down.

  • We had a lot of people give us boxes for our move, boxes that they'd used for their own moves - on one hand, it was nice not to have to find our own boxes, but on the other hand, it was pretty confusing to try & figure out just what was in each box because there were 3 different identifiers written on them... but, as my great-grandmother would say, "Beggars can't be choosers..."

  • We're approximately 53% unpacked & organized. Points of great need: closets; window coverings; hangage of posters & pictures.

  • Our 1st College Group of the semester is happening Sunday, 9/16 - we're celebrating our "comeback" with a great dinner & communion. I can't wait.

  • It's amazing how wonderful & smart I am when people like what I say/do; it's equally amazing how the same people can think I'm a flipping moron when I say/do something that they don't agree with.

  • Fantasy football is better played with friends. And a smak board.

  • My new toilet flushes very, very well. Bring it.

  • I don't think we really understand the significance of the cross.

  • A perfect day involves a comfy chair, an endless supply of great coffee, & a book. Gives me goosebumps thinking about it.

  • Blogging is often pointless, yet it's a beautiful thing. Some people talk to themselves; others blog. I do both. :)

  • I'm still having Germany-team withdrawals - one can really get used to the community aspect of seeing people every day for huge chunks of the day...

  • On that note, good friends are priceless. I love the people I work with, & am fortunate to have them as friends.
  • The MOG & the OMOG

    I was having coffee with a great friend & got to discussing the happenings of 1Kings 13... (IMOSHO: You should really click on the 1Kings 13 link to get familiarized with the story.)

    Specifically, its how one prophet (referred to as "the man of God" or MOG) was told, by God (big part of the story,) to go & communicate God's judgment (!) on Jeroboam, King of Judah because of idolatry. Additionally, the MOG was told, by God, not to eat or drink anything, under any circumstances, until he had returned to his own home after passing on the judgment of God on Jeroboam.

    After the passing of judgment, upon God's bidding, the MOG headed home. Before he got there, an old prophet (the Old Man Of God or OMOG) heard what had happened & for some reason went to meet/confront/interact with the MOG. The OMOG told the MOG that he should come to his house & eat & drink with him. The MOG said, "No way, God told me not to eat or drink til I get home." The OMOG then lied to the MOG, saying, "Au contraire. God told ME that it was ok for you to come to my house for dinner." The MOG, for some reason, (seniority?) believed the OMOG & went to his home, ate & drank.

    The Spirit of God came upon the OMOG for reals - & the OMOG prophesied that the MOG was going to die because of disobeying the instruction God had given him. On the way home, the MOG was killed by a lion. The OMOG went & recoved the MOG's body, buried him in his own (the OMOG's) burial plot, & grieved for him.


    Why did the OMOG lie to the MOG? Why did the MOG believe the OMOG? Why did the OMOG use God's name in vain? Why didn't the OMOG get punished, & only the MOG was killed by the lion? What state of mind was the OMOG in? Had he stopped hearing from God so long ago that he was jealous of the MOG & was used by the dark one to mislead the MOG? It makes one wonder... & makes this MOG want to listen to the One above all else & above all others. No matter what.

    Dead link & other musings...

    No sooner do I get an AWESOME Star Wars poster/pic, a virtual ode to Brint, than it disappears. I was indignant. Couldn't believe it. I was legitimately borrowing this link, & the owner of the link killed it.

    So, I found it again. And reposted it. Who's your daddy?
    Other thoughts on an early Tuesday...

  • The Bean & the Daro (12 year old son) are on an extended, 3 day field trip to SF. Bummer. And, they're freezing. I miss them. I really miss the Bean.
  • The NBA playoffs are almost interesting watching the Suns/Spurs go at it. Go Suns.
  • The Master Cleanse is coming... Anyone done this before?
  • I found out that there is a musical instrument called a Euphonium - how cool.
  • I will be sitting in meetings all day tomorrow. Ugh.
  • Brother's dog (Carter) is in heat, meaning Brother's other dog (Higgins) is chasing it around, 24/7. Higgins is tired.
  • Found a book on my desk after Sunday's speech called, The World is Flat by Thomas Friedman. Anyone know anything about this book? Anyone give it to me?
  • It is too hot to wear shoes, & my flip flops are uselessly thin. How does one go about purchasing new ones?
  • I'm off to Wild Oats to buy organic lemons, Grade B Maple Syrup, Cayenne Pepper, & Sea Salt. I think I'm going to make a smoothie.

    TTFN.
  • Defined by a label...?

    Yesterday, I took a quiz I found on a blog I read - DISCLAIMER: this was a new thing for me, as I usually don't spend my time filling out meaningless, time wasters (my own stereotype & feelings about 'those things" inserted here.) This one, however, intrigued me, as it attempted to bring out & identify my "theological worldview" - I was intrigued because I see myself (& you) as a pretty sophisticated, complex, deep & often parodoxical person who can't be accurately described with a label. This quiz told me that I could. It was a challenge, & I took it. Here are the results.

    You scored as Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan. You are an evangelical in the Wesleyan tradition. You believe that God's grace enables you to choose to believe in him, even though you yourself are totally depraved. The gift of the Holy Spirit gives you assurance of your salvation, and he also enables you to live the life of obedience to which God has called us. You are influenced heavly by John Wesley and the Methodists.

    Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan

    93%

    Emergent/Postmodern

    75%

    Neo orthodox

    64%

    Fundamentalist

    43%

    Charismatic/Pentecostal

    39%

    Roman Catholic

    29%

    Reformed Evangelical

    25%

    Classical Liberal

    25%

    Modern Liberal

    14%

    What's your theological worldview?
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    Colbert commentary...



    "I love my Church, and I'm a Catholic who was raised by intellectuals, who were very devout. I was raised to believe that you could question the Church and still be a Catholic. What is worthy of satire is the misuse of religion for destructive or political gains. That's totally different from the Word, the blood, the body and the Christ. His kingdom is not of this earth."
    --Stephen Colbert in TimeOut New York

    Musings...

    Ho there friends.

    As usual, the return from Germany is accompanied by a funky-schedule. Up early today (4-ish) which may mean a nap later. Anyhow, I thought I'd take the opportunity to use my time, & process some of my thoughts & observations from the trip.

    In many ways Germany seems very familiar re: church culture... in Deutschland, the church culture is a few hundred years older than ours - & it is more obvious there (to me) that churches often take on the expected (but perhaps unspoken) role of "what churches do" & "don't do") - (e.g. meaning meeting on Sunday, in a "church" building, the calendaring of events, creation-or lack thereof, of specific programs). Much of what becomes normal seems to be based on what is "successful" - not necessarily a bad thing, but only as long as the definition of success matches Jesus'. Otherwise, success is the number of people at church. It is the lack of conflict. It is reputation. It is sticking to what others are doing - esp. when the other church is experiencing "success..." There's a thought of "why re-invent the wheel? We'll just follow what others are doing."

    This shows up in the adoption of models - (not Zoolander silly,) rather, meaning the copying (almost exactly) a particular church/organizations structure/plan - the state church, Hillsong, Willow Creek, Saddleback, Emergent, Church on the Way, etc. These models may "work," but is it right?

    So, I'm pondering conformity & normalization in the context of church, especially the local church - seeing this organization through the lens of another culture has spurred me to comtemplation mode... esp. from asking clarifying questions about things that I'd observed in the church structure - questions like:

    -What is "normal" for the local church? What has made this "the norm?" (Think: traditions, identifying something as especially important/sacred, churchy-ness/religiousness etc...)
    -What does it look like for the local church to be developing its own unque identity? esp. in the context of "conformity" - where outside pressures/influences (personal aspirations & agendas, denominational forms & norms, city/community 'standards', &/or expectations, to name a few) intentionally or not, exert force/pressure to shape the church into something it may/may not supposed to be becoming...
    -Are there non-negotiables for every church (behaviors, norms, practices, methods, etc.)? If so, what are they? (beyond a statement of faith &/or an intellectual affirmation of values.) If not, why not?
    -How do you determine the methods you will use to get from point A to point B with the people of your church?

    More to come... your input is welcome. Probably.

    reading...


    I've got a stack of books awaiting my attention - last count I had 12 'must-reads' on the shelf behind my desk... this is officially the 'waiting room' for my books/next reads.

    I'm 2/3 of the way through THEY LIKE JESUS by Dan Kimball - I believe that this book should be required reading for any/all people that are a) Christ-followers & b) have a desire to live in such a way as to reflect Christ to the people that they come in contact with.

    Actualy, when they make me King, Emperor, Dominar, or Guy in Charge of Assigning Reading, I would give this book to every pastor (vocational or otherwise) in any & every Christian church - with a mandatory "Response Paper" to be written afterwards. The paper should be 3-5 pages, & would:

    -Address Kimball's thesis: People like Jesus, but they don't like the church - Why does Kimball say this? What are your observations of pre-Christians? What are your responses to these observations (his & yours)?

    -Describe your "philosophy of ministry" - briefly explain the "WHY's" (reasoning, values, beliefs) behind the "WHAT's" (actions, behaviors, personal schedules, programs) of the ministry you are involved in.

    -What does it mean to be missional? Describe the WHY's & the WHAT's of you being missional.

    Then, we'd all get together in small groups (5-8 people) & discuss what we wrote & why... with the intent being on taking action towards leading a community in living out Jesus.

    For inquiring minds:
    Dan Kimball Blog

    Vintage Faith Church

    A Quirk


    One of my favorite smells in the whole world is bleach. No particular brand, though is there any brand but Clorox? (CG- I know there is, but I needed to ask the question so you would post a URL to a pic of another brand of bleach...)

    I associate it with clean. With fresh. With contentment. The other day, I got some coffee (espresso actually) on the sleeve of my white Gonzaga U. sweatshirt - the one I bought when my brother got accepted to Gonzaga's law school, the one I bought to feel closer to him, though he was moving 13 hours away by auto.. the XXL sized shirt, the one that I put on when I get home, the one that makes me feel comfortable, in an oversized hoodie type of a way. The brown spot on the cuff of the sleeve of my right arm of the sweatshirt bothered me... maybe because I could see it everytime I looked down. Reminded me that I can see my hands all the time. How do you get a brown espresso stain out of a white hoodie? With a Clorox (R) bleach pen - just write on the affected part, wash, & presto! It's all good & clean.

    It took 42 minutes for my washer to wash the hoodie. Thought that was funny, because the timer at the beginning said 40 minutes. It's off by 2 minutes. Should that get looked at by a guy? Should that bother me? The dryer took about 18 minutes to dry the hoodie - it might have taken less time if I hadn't kept opening the door of the dryer to check on the dryness of my favorite sweatshirt.

    When it was dry, (really dry, not just mostly dry) I took it out & examined the cuff of the sleeve to see if the espresso stain had come out. It had. Boy howdy. In its place was a white, really white spot - I deduced that the bleach pen had taken the brown stain of the espresso drip & had removed it - in the process, whitening the spot where the pen touched. To Super White. Uber white.

    I had thought my Gonzaga U. hoodie was white - now I see that it is truly "off-white" in color - & that the only really white spot is on the cuff of the right sleeve in the shape of a starburst

    I see it all the time. And I like the white. Now, to get the rest of the hoodie white.

    Don't know why, but when you add it all up, it comes out as me.

    Star Wars - ode to Brint...

    I've done this song in this manner. And now, I want to do it again. Thanks CG!

    Putting it into practice personally...


    Today, it hit me. I normally take Fridays off - it hit me that for the next couple of weeks, my Fridays (& all/most of Saturdays) will be occupied with work...

    The processing begins... what about my rest day? what about the Sabbath? What do I do now that I have realized that I've scheduled away my day off? I have a problem taking a mulligan on this one - part of it is because I believe that the Sabbath is not just a good idea or a suggestion, but an obedience to a way of life that God has laid out for us. Not just going back to the September-December series on a Revolution of the Soul but because there is a deeper issue here: how will I put into practice this principle of obedience? It's not negotiable, & yet I find myself struggling internally to find a justification for "just this once." (Though it's twice actually.) Don't know that there is a simple, easy, quick answer to this one.