standing firm...

The last couple of weeks, I have felt physically spent - where all I want to do is sleep. So I have upped my sleep - & have even indulged in napping. Bummer part is that I'd wake up feeling as if I hadn't slept at all. Hmm.

My first thought is maybe it was the sickies trying to Klingon to me... don't know that that is it.

Second thought was to think through my schedule & see if & where I'd been overextending myself, pushing too hard, falling into old patterns... again, not sure that that is it.

And so I ponder: what's up? I know that these feelings are physical, mental, & definitely affecting the emotional. I like to figure things out - & so I'm praying, asking for insight, looking at me in the 3rd person...

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It came to my mind to pray for strength to stand... I know & am confident that "standing" is something that God has made me to do, for myself & for others, like Shammah did!, & He regularly reminds me of it... & the verses from Ephesians 6 came to mind...

A final word: Be strong with the Lord’s mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies and tricks of the Devil.

For we are not fighting against people made of flesh and blood, but against the evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against those mighty powers of darkness who rule this world, and against wicked spirits in the heavenly realms.

Use every piece of God’s armor to resist the enemy in the time of evil, so that after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground...

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Perhaps the accumulated relational stress, unforeseen financial tightness, physical/mental/emotional drain, etc. is actually all just a part of the latest wave that is to be resisted.

Refocus. Realign. Repent. Rest. Reaffirm my hope in Christ. And remain standing, fully reliant on the 'mighty power" of God to do so. Knowing that the battle will pass. The wave will move on. The heavy weariness will lift. And I want to still be on my feet.