Today is anniversary #20 of my marriage to theBean. When I think back through all the little 'coincidences' that led to us connecting that 3rd week of June, 1988, it boggles my mind. Perhaps I'll spend a little time revisiting the birth of our adventure.
I'm not much of a Destiny believer (meaning: there's 1 person out there for me & Destiny will bring us to-gev-uh...) which automatically identifies me as a "chick-flick hater" (not true: I'll watch 'em. Just don't buy into 'em.) And as a "non-romantic" (also not true: I may not be the Dr. of Love, but I have been known to be able to romance, wine, & dine my girl...)
However, there were more than a few 'what if's' that had to come together - when I was reminiscing about that with theBean, I asked her, "How could I get so lucky that you would love ME?" She said, "Hmm. Good question. You must've just been in the right place at the right time..." With a smile.
I was thinking about my life, & wondering if I would enjoy it if my job had a "summer break" - like my 3 kids do. Sometimes, the loads of free time, lounging around, doing whatever, whenever, however seems attractive. And then I realize that one of life's great joys is the ability to do something with purpose...
Mind you, I'm not talking about deriving my worth from work; instead, its knowing that my life matters. Being able to put my hands to something, to give my all & do my best plays a role in the feeling of contentment. I've been reading through Ecclesiastes & found something that sums that up for me:
Here is what I have seen to be and fitting: to eat, to drink, & enjoy oneself in all one's labor in which he toils under the sun during the few years of his life which God has given him; for this is his reward...Ecclesiastes 5:18 NASB
Perhaps the doldrums, depression, & discontent come from not having something to apply one's hands to? Not just a job, but a place to volunteer, help out, give of oneself. Hmmm.
Just booked my time at CSR for the 3rd week of August. Me & theBean spent some time there last year & it was life-changing. If you'd like to reminisce (I know I did!) you can check out the posts from last August HERE
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Time to go work out. Then home to shower, put on my foo-foo clothes, & out to dinner (which will be, most likely a slab of beef,) with my One, myBean, the love of my life, mother of my children, most B-E-A-Utiful woman in the entire world...